Posts Tagged ‘patience’
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010
If one needs to know one’s karma, lessons, healing and transformation, one should pay more attention to planets Saturn, Chiron, Pluto and North Node. Saturn is called the planet of the Lord of Karma; the teacher and task master. Where Saturn is in our natal chart, is where we will face our greatest fear, experience the most challenge and delay. It teaches us facing fear, having faith and trust in ourselves and in spirit, learning to have patience, discipline and perseverance. If we have learned our lessons, we will get reward from Saturn in the late stage of our life. However, if we have not learned the lessons, Saturn will find ways to teach us in the hard way. The Saturn return is the time where we can evaluate what we have learned and how much we have learned. (The first Saturn return is around age of 20 – 30. The second Saturn return is around age of 58 – 60).
Pluto is a planet of transformation. Where the Pluto is located in our natal chart, is where we are going to go through the radical change and transformation in that area of our life. In that area of our life, we are going to go through letting the old die and the new be born. We can not hold onto anything that is no longer serve our soul purpose. If we do, the universe will find way to force us to change, sometimes, may bring us to our knees. The change which the Pluto brings into our life is not necessary an easy one, but if we go with the change, we will inevitably transformed to the soul we are destined to be and we will be changed for the betterment of our soul.
Chiron is considered as an asteroid, but it is far more powerful than it seems to be. Chiron is the wounded healer. Where Chiron is located in our natal chart, is where we will face our deepest wound, the wound we have carried for many incarnations, the wound we needs to be healed on a very deep level. If we can heal this deep wound within us, then we can claim our own healing power and help others who may have the same wound as we have to be healed. In this way, we will be at our best service to others because we have been there and done that, so when we serve, we serve with deep understanding and compassion. This is the highest form of our service to others.
to be continued…
Tags: change, Chiron, discipline, faith, fear, karma, Life lessons, natal chart, north node, patience, perseverance, Pluto, Saturn, transformation, trust
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Saturday, July 24th, 2010
First of all, I stopped judging or feeling bad about this person and the related work. Secondly, I decided not to take this matter personally but see it move objectively. Then, I asked myself: How could I help? I decided that instead of blaming or criticizing this person, understanding their situation, having sympathy and compassion to them. Therefore, I approached this person and offered my help in a very sincere way. surprised me that this person was far more pleased by my offering to help.
From this event, I have learned that I can make difference and create the positive reality by changing my habit, pattern, belief and conditioning. Anything and anyone in the outside world is only a reflection of my inner world. I can not judge, criticize and blame anyone for what I don’t like. They are only the mirrors for what I need to see and to deal with within me. I am the only one who is responsible for me, my life and my situation. The key to improve my relationships with others is to work on my self from within. Before I judge and criticize, I need to see the good, light and beauty in others. By doing this alone, it will help me be at peace with myself. If I can be at peace with myself, I will have peace with others, with the situation, with the environment.
This awareness is a revolution for me. This is going to change my old habit, belief, conditioning and pattern from my very being which I have carried for so many incarnations. Only by doing so, working on each aspect of me step by step, little by little, can I truly evolve to the soul who I truly am. I know that this will be an on-going process and will not be an easy one either. But with my good intention, patience, discipline, determination and perseverance, I can make the change. I am the only one to be responsible for my life. If I do not do it, nobody will do it for me.
Tags: aspect, belief, change, conditioning, good, habit, incarnation, life, light, patience, pattern, soul
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Sunday, May 9th, 2010
As time went by and I was raising my vibration, this past life energy started coming to the surface, I was finally able to get connected to this past life energy. It turned out that Margaret and Maitreya was absolutely right. It was a big past life and very dramatic and traumatized. Because it was too painful and fearful, my SELF basically blocked it so that I could not connect to it. It took me three years to work through this energy and finally I was able to release it completely.
From this experience, I have learned to pay attention to any past life information given by Spirit through other people. It may not speak to me at that moment, but if I pay attention to it and start to work on it, gradually, it will come to my consciousness fully so that I can release and clear it completely. Therefore, getting past life information from past life readings, working on it through all heal modalities, especially through past life regression, together, they are able to help us to release our past, leave the past behind and move forward to our true destiny.
However, when we carry some past life pattern for so many past lives, it became a very deep and mixed energy with many layers, just like a big onion, we have to peer it layer by layer very patiently, and one step at a time. Especially when it connects to the big lessons we need to learn, it will be an on-going process, definitely can not be down overnight. It requires faith, trust, patience and perseverance. With time and effort, we can eventually remove it and free from it.
Recently, I am helping my daughter release her deep anger which I am part of it and I am responsible for it too. Although I have worked out my part and paid my karma to her, she is still going through releasing her anger towards me which came from our past lives together as well as her childhood in this life.
In the process of her release, I have to learn to let her be her own person, not try to step on her toes even though I may not agree with what she is doing or what she chooses to do. When she is going through her process, she becomes very sensitive and agitated. Whatever I asked her or said to her, she would react aggressively and angrily towards me. At beginning, I was feeling pain in my heart and just could not take her on board. I was hurt by her words. However, since being with Margaret/Maitreya for many years, I understand that nothing happens by accident; that I also understand that she is mirroring something that I need to look within myself.
To be continued….
Tags: accident, anger, childhood, daughter, Energy, faith, heart, life, pain, past life energy, past life pattern, past life regression, patience, perseverance, release, remove, trust
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Friday, April 23rd, 2010
I, myself, have a very restless thought process. My mind is wondering around all the time and all over the places, not a minute being still. I never realized that I need to watch my thoughts and learn to control them until recently I have had a lot of coughing and throat symptoms. As I was clearing my deep buried emotions from my energy field, I begin to have throat problem. I cough unexpectedly. When I cough, I would act as if I was throwing stuff out of my throat which I never have had such violent cough before. I finally begin to beware that this could be caused due to my over active mental energy. I habitually tend to go inward and to think, unfortunately, a lot of my thinking is just thinking but I never take action to put it into motion, creation or manifestation, or communication with someone. As a result, anything I thought about, I initiated the energy process, because I did not have an outlet for these energies, they are all stocked in my mental body which connects to the fifth energy center ( the fifth chakra) located in our throat, regulated by thyroid gland. If this energy center is severely blocked, it finally can manifest physical problems connected to our throat area.
My recently constant cough finally made me realize that it is time for me to pay attention to control my mental body, watch my though patterns and learn to focus my mental energy and be still. This is very easy to say but very hard to do as this is to change my old and conditioned habit. The change will not happen overnight, however, with my patience, discipline and perseverance, I can make it happen, little by little, slowly but surely. I can eventually move away from restless, highly charged thought pattern and mental energy. One good thing is that at least I am aware of it now. Now, I can start to make conscious effort to watch my thoughts and the way I am thinking, learn to focus on what I really wish to do and to have in my life, and start to manifest it. Boy, what a realization and decision I just made. The next step is to have discipline, patience, determination and perseverance to make it happen. Slowly but surely, I will change it.
I put the Maitreya’s newsletter of “Thought Energy” here for your reference, you may be enlightened by his simple but wise words. If you wish to read more about Maitreya’s message, please go to www.Maitreya-edu.org.
To be continued….
Tags: cough, determination, discipline, Energy, energy field, habit, Maitreya, mental body, mind, outlet, patience, perseverance, physical problem, thought energy, thought pattern, thought process, throat, thyroid gland
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Saturday, April 17th, 2010
However, recently I realized that I have changed it. I finished my aura soma level III course, it has been two months passed and I still not receive my certificate. If this happened before, I was going to be very impatience and angry, I would try to figure out why and how? But this time, I did not go that way, I was simply send a very nice email to the teacher about it, then I let it be and leave it to the teacher with the trust that the teacher will find it out. A few days later, I received an email from the person who is in charge of signing our certificate to confirm my mailing address.
Another thing was that I ordered a healing book 5 weeks ago and I have not received it. This was happening very rare as I bought a lot of books, they were all arrived within 2 weeks. After 3 weeks I did not receive the book ( this was the deadline Amazon has), I simply followed the procedure of Amazon and sent an email to the seller. The seller replied that they had sent it out by media mail, it normally took 3 – 4 weeks, sometimes, even longer. The seller asked me to wait for another week or so. And I did. Another week passed by, the book still did not arrive. But somehow, I had a feeling that the book would come so I decided to let it be. Then the book came in the 5th week. By then I realized that I have patience! I was not worried and was not giving all these things any energy! I simply just followed the process procedure and things worked out on their own course.
By realizing that I started to have patience, I can see how much change I have made. I was a different person, actually a better one. I did not allow the worry and impatience disturbed the peace of my mind and of my life. I was not bothered by these things any more. I did not do it intentionally but it just happened. Because of that, I can see the change I have made. I can use all the wasted energy I used to in all the things I like to do. It is amazing that I have made this change! I truly thank spirit for putting me in a situation that I have the opportunity to make change and to move on spiritually. When I can see the changes I have made in my own life with my own awareness, I do feel good. I am truly grateful!
Tags: awareness, change, Energy, healing, impatience, life, mailing address, opportunity, patience, procedure, spirit, worry
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Friday, April 16th, 2010
I moved to a better environment so that I had more quiet time to be alone. This enabled me to go deep within. Then, only then, have I started to deal with my ingrained issues: perfectionism, values and conditioned habits and beliefs from my past lives. This process truly makes me change and be humbled.
This process has transformed from a busy person to slowing down. I now enjoy being alone and having quiet time with myself. I felt more peace and contentment with myself. I have more time to look at my mirrors and to review myself so that I can make change. I can say that last year was one of the best years since I started my spiritual path as it really slowed me down so that I have had time to work on myself and to make radical changes in my own Being.
Now, after seven years no stop changing and clearing, learning lessons and working on my karmic debts, I am still in the process and it will never end as long as I am still on the earth plane. Now, I no longer rush and push myself to do things. I have been learning to listen to my feelings and inner guidance so that I can allow spirit guide me, lead me and to bring things to me. Because I am dealing with letting go of my Ego’s control, I found that I have more energy to focus on things which are important for spiritual work. I also realize that I am much calmer and not be bothered by things that used bother me greatly.
As I said before, I used not having patience at all. If I wanted something, I wanted it now, very demanding and controlling, even though I was totally not aware of it. For example, if I ordered something, I wanted it to be in my hand in a few days, if it did not arrive in my expected time frame, I would call the company again and again to push them or find out what was going on. By doing these, it really caused a lot of stress on me, but I was not aware of it. It has become my habit. I was controlled by it and running by it.
To be continued….
Tags: aware, change, contentment, controlling, demanding, environment, habit, mirror, patience, peace, stress
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Thursday, April 15th, 2010
At those years, I kept myself busy. Even though Spirit sent me a lot of messages that I needed to slow done and I needed to take time off, my Self simply ignored them all. I kept saying, “ no, I can handle it”, “no, I am ok’, “no, I enjoy doing it”. I did not stop doing things nights and weekend. I did not realize that I kept myself busy because I was insecure and in fear that if I had a break, someone was going to replace me and I would not have what I had. My Self wanted to control and wanted to show off my importance.
Last year, there was a lot of changes in our working place, new people with new energy came in, I was no longer doing what I used to do, no more workshops ( no people came), no more responsibilities at school. My Self was in terror and felt threatened that I was no longer in control at all. No one needed me anymore. My Self was not happy about this situation. Therefore, my Self created an illusion that since I did not have anything to do anymore, which meant that I was no longer needed. Before they asked me to leave, I’d better to leave. Therefore, my Self created a situation: readers to give me the message that I needed to move on and to do things outside the center.
So I was in anger and busy to prepare to leave and blamed others for all these happening. I did all these without knowing what my Self was doing to me till Master Maitreya stepped in and talked to me with love what my Self was doing to me. Being in the Master’s energy enabled me to see through the illusion what my Self was doing, I was shocked by it! I could not believe after quite a few years being educated directly by the Master, I was still taken away by my Self even without realizing it at all!
This was the true awakening call to me. Since then I was starting to pay attention to my Self’s doing. Because of Spirit slowed me down by removing all that my Self held on to, my Self jumped out to fight its mighty. But because of that, I was finally able to see my Self with the help of Maitreya. This was a big lesson I have learned last year and because of that, I truly began to look within to deal with my own darkness and deep issues.
To be continued….
Tags: anger, awakening call, darkness, Illusion, Messages, patience, pay attention to, responsibility, self, spirit
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Wednesday, April 14th, 2010
Looking back those days, I could not believe that I had so much fear of being alone. In order for me to avoid that feeling, I had to keep myself busy. Therefore, I opened my house for Friday evening Bible Study, Saturday fellowship, in this way, I felt safe and useful by being surrounded by people and by activities and I did not have to look within: what was the true cause of my fear of being alone?
In the early years of my spiritual path, I was very excited and I thought that in a few years of time, I would have completed my ascension process, I would have the completion. I thought I was doing very well and not having much to go through.
In 2008, when Margaret and Alan just started their “the Sixth Sense Radio Show”, we needed someone calling in the show for the free reading. Because it was the first day, not many people knew this program, so, I offered myself to call in the show to have a reading. My Self was very arrogant at that time and thought that the reading would be wonderful. My Self was not prepared to hear anything I did not want to hear. My Self really thought that I did not have issues. How shallow, arrogant and ignorant I was!
When sister through Margaret told me that I needed to learn patience as I was not having patience at all, whatever I wanted, I wanted it now. Margaret also pointed that this was my past lives’ ingrained habit which I needed to have a look and to make change if I was going to move forward spiritually.
I still remembered that day. It was a very embarrassed moment while I heard my reading. A quite a few people were in my office to listen to the show, we turned on the volume so that everyone could hear. I expected to hear the praise and did not prepare to hear words like these. My Self was very anger about it as everyone now knew my issues. Even today as I am writing this blog, I can still clearly see that angry image of me at that day. I was perfectionism at that time and did not want anyone to see my flaws and mistakes. So you can see how big impact could be on me from this reading on that day. My Self was really having a Self day. My Self blamed me that how stupid I was to have a reading on the show ,how others would laugh at me and would no longer look upon me as I was no longer perfect!
To be continued….
Tags: anger, ascension, bible study, issues, patience, people, perfect, reading, self, spiritual path
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Tuesday, April 13th, 2010
In Chinese, there is a saying: “Haste makes waste”. It can make everything ‘come to naught’. In order for one to move forward spiritually, faith, trust, patience and perseverance are very important and necessary quality to develop. Having no patience is also where our Self strongly cling to. The Self part of us wants to control everything, not be able to let go something and hold on to nothing. if we have patience, we will have time. If we have time, we will have to sit quietly and look within ourselves. When we look within, we have to deal with the issues and lessons we brought back. This will threaten the Self and it definitely does not like it. Therefore, it will do all it can to keep us busy.
I remember that before I started searching spiritual meaning of my life, I was a very dedicate and devoted Christian. My life was very much settled and stable. Life become routine: stable job, high income, having fulfilled America Dream ( car, house , secured job and savings in bank) and having Jesus, the Christ, saved me (LOL), so I should not worry about anything, I should be very contented. Unfortunately, this was not so.
Because of conditioning and fear, I did not have many friends. All friends I had were Chinese and Church friends. My social life was very little and limited. I had plenty of time to do my own things at home. But I was afraid of being alone, so I kept myself busy and fully occupied: evenings going to Church prayer meeting, Friday evenings Bible Study, Saturdays Fellowship or retreat, Sundays Workshop. I was very busy and active. I acted as if I was very useful and active, but I was actually very insecure and lonely. If there was a day no activity, I was in panic and fear. I was waiting for phone calls from Church friends to make me feel the connection and being needed by others. If there was no phone call coming in, I would make phone calls to church friends. Sometimes, I had to make conversation. If I was totally alone and had nothing to do, I could feel my fear!
To be continued….
Tags: Chinese, Christian, Church, conditioning, fear, fellowship, life, meaning of life, patience, social life
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Monday, April 12th, 2010
One of the most important lessons in spiritual development is to learn patience. We are today living in a society of no patience at all, especially in the United States of America. People are rushing here and there, everything is done by fast, quick and hurry. You can always hear people say: “ No, I can not wait”, “No, I want it now!” “No, I don’t have time”; “No, I can not slow down, I have to get it done immediately.” This kind rush, restless and unsettled energy is every where, from driving a car to eating, everything is fast, quick fixed, people really do not have time to enjoy life.
When I had my car’s flat tire a few weeks ago, I had to drive very slowly. But the cars behind me were very impatience, they were irritated by the slow speed. They did not care what had happened to the car before them, they just wanted to pass by me as fast as they could. When I finally pulled my car to the side of the road, the cars behind me rushed passing by me. Some of the people even horned me to show their anger.
This was the general situation of our today’s society, almost everyone has been conditioned this way as if busy and rush is the only way to show others they have something to do. If someone sit still and have nothing to do, this person will feel guilt, bad or something wrong.
However, if one is on the spiritual path and working with Spirit, one can not rush. If one is busy all the time, one would not have energy and time to sit quietly to listen to inner voice and feelings. Our Self likes to keep us busy so that we will not do our inner work, as a result, we are not able to move forward to higher vibration.
Spiritual development is not a short time process. It is a long journey. It takes a lot of time for spirit to do the alignment on our subtle bodies and to allow spiritual energy working on us. It also needs years for us to clear layers of the blocks stored in our subtle bodies – physical, mental, emotional and spiritual, just like peering onion, till we have cleared all layers so that the old energy can be finally completely replaced by new energy, then, only then, can we have a brand new being and new life.
To be continued…..
Tags: Energy, enjoy life, Higher vibration, patience, self, spirit, spiritual development, spiritual energy, spiritual path, subtle bodies
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