Posts Tagged ‘life’
Sunday, August 29th, 2010
January 3rd of 2006, I said “Good Bye” to Philadelphia and flew to Bellevue, WA to join Margaret and Alan to become Margaret’s personal assistant. I stayed in their house downstairs in the most beautiful and quiet environment. A new life and new beginning began and my life opened a brand new page. I was full of hope and joy for the change and for finally I was able to go towards my true destiny and to work with Spirit closely. After all these struggles in 2005, I felt that I was the luckiest person in the world and that I was so blessed and grateful.
Everything was great and everyday had something new for me to learn in the area of metaphysics. I have enjoyed being with Margaret and Alan as I learned a lot of things on the spiritual level from them on the daily base. I also moved into another level of my spiritual development. Since I found the true purpose of my life, I have been longing for full time working for Spirit. Here my wish has come true. This was a completely different arena from what I was used to for the past 51 years of my life. The dominant logic part of me had to let go and I had to learn to listen to my intuition, not to be too rigid which I used to be and too structured. Old habit died hard. I had so much difficult to change it as this was where my Self had been holding onto. At one time, Margaret told me that Spirit was to shut down my left brain in order for me to learn to listen and develop my intuition which is belonging to the right brain. Because of all the new life and new learning, the pressure I had on the lawsuit was greatly reduced. Therefore, I thought that I should no longer have to deal with it anymore. What an escaper! It turned out that I was totally wrong about it. It was again, that my Self wanted to run away from the lessons and challenge my soul has chosen to go through.
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Tags: change, destiny, environment, intuition, lawsuit, left brain, lesson, life, Margaret, purpose, self, soul, spirit
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Saturday, August 28th, 2010
I was surprised to hear the Master’s words that I owed Margaret karma as I remembered a year ago I felt something between me and Margaret, and I asked Master by directly chatting with him if I had karma with Margaret and he told me I did not have. But here he told me I just paid my debt to her which I even did not know where the Karma came from. When Margaret came out of the trance state, she explained to me that I was her and Alan’s mother in law in a life around 15th century. The other lady who was with us that time was my daughter and Alan’s wife. I was sent to kitchen to spy Margaret who was taken to Alan’s second wife at age of 16 in that life. I listened to my daughter and treated Margaret badly in that life. So by helping her packing, moving and unpacking this time, I paid my karma to her.I was so glad that I followed my intuition and did what I should do for assisting their moving.
I flew back Philadelphia two days later after Margaret and Alan moved to Bellevue. Before I left, I loaned $40,000 from the house I sold to Alan for us to be on Body, Mind and Spirit expo trip. This was decided before I knew I had Karma with them. So it had nothing to do with Karma but just I felt I should do so to support the work we were going to do. I was busy to arrange putting my furniture into the storage, sending a note to my landlord, informing my lawyer about my moving and having someone to help my daughter while she was out of school holidays since I will be 6 hours flight distance away. I went my daughter’s college to pick her back home for her winter break and talked her about the change. It was hard for her but it was also a time for me to move on. I did everything in 20 days during the Christmas time. I could not imagine how to accomplish so much in the holiday time before but I did it so smoothly and I knew I had help from Spirit which I was very grateful.
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Tags: body, century, change, daughter, holiday, home, karma, lawsuit, life, mind, spirit, wife
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Friday, August 27th, 2010
However, I can now see that it does not have to be such difficult as I thought it was if I did not have fears: worrying about money and survival, poverty consciousness and lack of self confident. Because of these fears I made the five months waiting period much harder and more difficult than it should be.
In December of 2005 I flew to Tacoma to meet Alan and Margaret again to get our January tour ready. This time Margaret and Alan were also going through big change in their life, I felt that they need a personal assistant. It was just an idea. However, it surprised me that a few days later, Margaret talked to me that they needed me to be their personal assistant. They told me that this was a temporary job and they were not able to pay me salary but I could come to live with them. I did not care if they would pay me salary. I was just simply so happy to hear this as if I was waiting for this day for so long and I was finally free from my situation in Philadelphia and was able to work with Spirit closely. They wanted me to be with them as soon as possible which left me only three weeks to put all things together and to move from Philadelphia to Bellevue. This was unexpected but it was what I have longed for in my soul. During my visiting this time I also heard that they were moving from Tacoma apartment to Bellevue house they just bought. When I heard this, I strongly felt that I needed to extend my staying so I could help them move. So on December 10 2005, we moved from Tacoma to Bellevue. The following day after Alan and I unpacked everything Margaret said to us that the Master wanted to talk to us. Master gave us the deep gratitude from Spirit and told me that I paid my karma to Margaret by deciding extending stay and working hard to help Margaret and Alan move.
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Tags: apartment, Bellevue, consciousness, difficult, karma, lawsuit, life, Margaret, poverty, soul, spirit, survival
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2010
I was alone and had no job, but I was ok for finally I did something for myself. I thought that I had finished the karma and lessons with my boss. But again I was wrong.
In September of 2005 I came to Seattle to attend the grand opening of Seattle Metaphysical school at Tacoma. I stayed with Alan and Margaret. The following morning after the grand opening, while Alan and I were talking aside their dinning table, Margaret rushed out from shower with a tower wrapped her wet body and said to me that I needed to file a lawsuit against my boss. I was shocked by what she said and thought that I heard her wrong. So I said to her with full confusion on my face: “ what?” and then she said to me again firmly that I needed to file a lawsuit against my boss.
By then I finally got the message that I had to file a lawsuit. Just by thinking about this topic, I could feel my fear all over my whole being. At first I was very fearful as I did not want expose my privacy to public and I did not want people to criticize me. Secondly, I thought that I had finished the karma with my boss by breaking up the relationship with him I no longer needed to do anything with him anymore. Margaret sensed my fear so that she sit down to explain why I needed to file the lawsuit. She explained that my boss was in control mode for many incarnations and could not break from it.
By me to stand up against him through lawsuit, I could help him stop keeping on this pattern which could assist him to change as a soul. Also this was my big lesson I needed to learn in this life time to stand up for my own right as a woman and human being. What I did not know what was ahead of me and how much I could handle. I was so worry about the outcome as I did not expect anything like this to happen so that I did not collect any evidence.
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Tags: Alan, fear, human being, karma, lawsuit, lesson, life, Margaret, message, Metaphysics, people, school, soul
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2010
Since then I worked much harder to improve my performance in the hope that they would change their mind. Unfortunately I was so naïve. No matter how hard I have tried, I still got the second warning letter. In this letter, they put me in 3 months probation and gave me very strict restriction. If I still stayed in my job, I would loss all my self respect as a human being. Till then I realized that nothing would change no matter how hard I had tried. It was not about my performance. It was because I broke the relationship with my boss, he could not stand for being rejected by me; he could not watch me taking control for my own life!
I had quite a few past lives with my boss. In all those lives, he was the dominate one and in total control. I was only his sexual slave and mistress. He had full power over me to do whatever he wanted to do to me. Because of fear I gave my power away to him and allowed him to control me. In this life, I have chosen to take my power back.
By breaking up the relationship with him, it was the first step for me to take my power back. However, he could not bear losing control and his power. Therefore, he used his power to manipulate others to believe in him that my job performance was very poor. He wanted me to beg him to allow me stay and to go back to him. But I did not want to go back to him. I wanted to move on!
Therefore, I made the choice to quit my job. Although I had a very stable and secured job with good income, it was no longer for me. In the same week that I left my job I also sold my house. Within a week I lost my job and my house. I had to find a place to stay and I was officially unemployed. It was August of 2005.
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Tags: choice, cotrol, fear, job, lawsuit, life, move on, past lives, performance, power, Relationship, slave
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Monday, August 16th, 2010
I never thought that I was going to have a lawsuit in my life. I used to be very cautious not to break any laws in order to avoid any trouble in my life after experiencing my father’s arrest event in the Chinese Cultural Revolution. I had carried deep fear over authorities due to my horrible experiences with authority in many incarnations. I tried to stay away from any trouble with government, authority, police and law, etc.
Unfortunately, the Universe knows me much better than I know myself. What I had feared with, the Universe brought to me to face it. It sounds very scary, and going through the process was not easy either, but as I faced my fear, I have learned so much from it and become a better soul.
It was in September of 2005, I just went through a big change in my life. In March that year, I broke up a relationship with my boss. Even though we only had a few months relationship, it was a very intense and emotional charged relationship. In a short period, all the past life energies started to come to the surface, I was emotionally charged by these energies but was not aware of it. I was very angry, sad, depressed and felt as if I was trapped into a hopeless trap. I finally was able to break this relationship and felt free. But 10 days later after the termination of the relationship, I got first warning letter from my big boss ( higher position than the one I had relationship with) for my poor job performance. I knew what the true cause was of this letter but I was so afraid of speaking out the truth. I was afraid of what other people were going to thinking about me if I exposed my sexual relationship with my boss; I was so afraid of being laughed, judged and ridiculed. So I did not say anything but kept it quietly.
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Tags: change, Chinese Cultural Revolution, event, father, fear, job, law, lawsuit, life, performance, Relationship, soul, universe
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Saturday, August 7th, 2010
This happened 15 years ago. Although I was not spiritual at that time, and I did not know that I was body, mind and spirit, that I was a soul on a journey, and that I had a life plane to fulfill. I did not know any of these. All I knew was that I was not happy and I was not me. I did not want to hold onto the position, social status and title. I wanted to find happiness for my heart. So, when the opportunity was presented to me, I chose to take it.
I did this with huge struggle. On the one side I had everything that many people wanted to have, but I did not have the happiness and freedom I wanted; On the other side, I was nobody in the strange foreign country and I did not have things I used to have, but I had freedom and opportunities to find my own happiness. I chose to have freedom and to find my own happiness with enormous fear of not knowing the future. This was the first step of my lesson that needed to be learned. Even though I consciously did not know at that time, my soul knew and my heart knew. By being truthful to my heart, I made a choice to follow my heart and to leave all the material values behind. Because of this choice, I was able to move on to next level of learning this value lesson.
After 7 years in the United States, I finally built my life here. I was stable and comfortable. I had a very high pay and stable job, I bought house and had a very good living standard compare to most Americans. As everything became stabilized and routine, I became boring and did not know what to do with my life. Life taught me the lesson again, what are the most valuable values in my life: face value and material value or value in my heart? Life again showed me that the material value could not make me happy. But I did not know how to make change to make me happy!
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Tags: change, happy, heart, house, job, levels, life, Life lessons, material value, routine, standard, value
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Saturday, July 24th, 2010
First of all, I stopped judging or feeling bad about this person and the related work. Secondly, I decided not to take this matter personally but see it move objectively. Then, I asked myself: How could I help? I decided that instead of blaming or criticizing this person, understanding their situation, having sympathy and compassion to them. Therefore, I approached this person and offered my help in a very sincere way. surprised me that this person was far more pleased by my offering to help.
From this event, I have learned that I can make difference and create the positive reality by changing my habit, pattern, belief and conditioning. Anything and anyone in the outside world is only a reflection of my inner world. I can not judge, criticize and blame anyone for what I don’t like. They are only the mirrors for what I need to see and to deal with within me. I am the only one who is responsible for me, my life and my situation. The key to improve my relationships with others is to work on my self from within. Before I judge and criticize, I need to see the good, light and beauty in others. By doing this alone, it will help me be at peace with myself. If I can be at peace with myself, I will have peace with others, with the situation, with the environment.
This awareness is a revolution for me. This is going to change my old habit, belief, conditioning and pattern from my very being which I have carried for so many incarnations. Only by doing so, working on each aspect of me step by step, little by little, can I truly evolve to the soul who I truly am. I know that this will be an on-going process and will not be an easy one either. But with my good intention, patience, discipline, determination and perseverance, I can make the change. I am the only one to be responsible for my life. If I do not do it, nobody will do it for me.
Tags: aspect, belief, change, conditioning, good, habit, incarnation, life, light, patience, pattern, soul
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Tuesday, July 20th, 2010
Before I came to the earth plane in this life, I choose to learn heavy lessons in the area of relationships, not only all type of relationships with human interaction, especially the one on one intimate relationship, but also with animals and nature as well. I have chosen to learn to be softer. Although I have been a female figure in many incarnations, but I have not learned to be gentle, to be softer without losing my power; I either allowed others to control me completely but buried so much anger within me, or I controlled others and treated others badly. Either way is not the way to bring peace, harmony, joy and happiness into my life. Therefore, in this incarnation I have determined to work out the karma I have acuminated in this area and bring balance back into my being.
In my whole life, I hardly have very close friends. Being without friends was bothered me greatly when I was young. I wanted to fit into my age group and wanted to be liked by my schoolmates, but for somehow, no one ever was close to me. I wanted to be good friend with some classmates whose family were on the high social status but ended only had one friend whose school grades were not good, in other words, who was not “academic smart”. She was the only loyal friend I had in my primary school even though I had excellent grades. She was always with me and supported me. Unfortunately, our relationship was ruined by the event that she was infected by head fungi and she in turn infected me by using her comb on my hair, so we both had Scalp Ringworm and had to go to hospital in the capital city of our province for the special treatment. Because of that, my hair was shaved and my head was exposed to intense x-ray for 40 minutes in order to kill all fungi on my head. I had to go to school with a shaved head and was laughed badly by kids in our school wherever I was. I also developed bad headache. My health was also gone down.
When my mother found out that I got the Scalp Ringworm from her, she did not want me to be with my friend anymore. So I lost my only friend. Although I was “academic smart” and had very good school records, it did not buy me friendship with classmates. I was most of the time playing alone. I was very good at gymnastics without anyone teaching me. I was also good at sports so that I was selected to swim team in Sports School, which helped me greatly in my loneliness after school time.
To be continued….
Tags: age group, friend, good, incarnation, lessons, life, light, loneliness, relationships
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Friday, July 9th, 2010
After we completed our transition to Spiritual world – our true home, we have a thorough rest in the reception area. Then it is time of our life review for our earthly incarnation. The purpose of life review is to self examine what we have learned from our earthly experiences; have we fulfilled our contract for this incarnation? Have we created karma because of our action or reaction to others or the choices we have made? We can not truly move on into spiritual realm until we have done our life review.
When we are on the earth plane, most of us live in the illusion created by the earth plane. Because of the illusion and our SELF – the animal survival part of us, we are so wrapped into the illusion that most of us have forgotten the true purpose of our incarnation and have forgotten that we are body. Mind and Spirit. The soul, the Spirit is the true and eternal part of us. Our true home is not on the earth plane but in the spiritual realm. We think as if the life we have on the earth plane is the only and real life. The people we are connected with are our truly family and the only ones we have, so that we cling to everyone or everything we are close to and we dear to. We can not see that they are all created by our perception and we live in our own hologram! We live in our own illusion!
People we are connected to on the earth plane are not the same family as we have in spirit. They are only souls who are the actors and actress in our play that we set up for ourselves before our incarnation. Their purpose in our life is to assist us to pay our karma; balance our karma; work out any issues or unfinished business; and learn our lessons that we have set up for ourselves so that we can achieve our soul’s growth. At the most, we will be able to free ourselves from the earth plane and end the wheel of reincarnation on the earth plane.
to be continued….
Tags: hall of mirro, Illusion, incarnation, issues, karam, lessons, life, life reviews, purpose, reincarnation, self, soul growth, spirit, unfinished business
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