Posts Tagged ‘habit’

SEE THE LIGHT AND GOOD IN EVERYONE – Final Words

Saturday, July 24th, 2010

First of all, I stopped judging or feeling bad about this person and the related work. Secondly, I decided not to take this matter personally but see it move objectively. Then, I asked myself: How could I help? I decided that instead of blaming or criticizing this person, understanding their situation, having sympathy and compassion to them. Therefore, I approached this person and offered my help in a very sincere way. surprised me that this person was far more pleased by my offering to help.

From this event, I have learned that I can make difference and create the positive reality by changing my habit, pattern, belief and conditioning. Anything and anyone in the outside world is only a reflection of my inner world. I can not judge, criticize and blame anyone for what I don’t like. They are only the mirrors for what I need to see and to deal with within me. I am the only one who is responsible for me, my life and my situation. The key to improve my relationships with others is to work on my self from within. Before I judge and criticize, I need to see the good, light and beauty in others. By doing this alone, it will help me be at peace with myself. If I can be at peace with myself, I will have peace with others, with the situation, with the environment.

This awareness is a revolution for me. This is going to change my old habit, belief, conditioning and pattern from my very being which I have carried for so many incarnations. Only by doing so, working on each aspect of me step by step, little by little, can I truly evolve to the soul who I truly am. I know that this will be an on-going process and will not be an easy one either. But with my good intention, patience, discipline, determination and perseverance, I can make the change. I am the only one to be responsible for my life. If I do not do it, nobody will do it for me.

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THOUGHT ENERGY – Part 3

Friday, April 23rd, 2010

I, myself, have a very restless thought process. My mind is wondering around all the time and all over the places, not a minute being still. I never realized that I need to watch my thoughts and learn to control them until recently I have had a lot of coughing and throat symptoms. As I was clearing my deep buried emotions from my energy field, I begin to have throat problem. I cough unexpectedly. When I cough, I would act as if I was throwing stuff out of my throat which I never have had such violent cough before. I finally begin to beware that this could be caused due to my over active mental energy. I habitually tend to go inward and to think, unfortunately, a lot of my thinking is just thinking but I never take action to put it into motion, creation or manifestation, or communication with someone. As a result, anything I thought about, I initiated the energy process, because I did not have an outlet for these energies, they are all stocked in my mental body which connects to the fifth energy center ( the fifth chakra) located in our throat, regulated by thyroid gland.  If this energy center is severely blocked, it finally can manifest physical problems connected to our throat area.

My recently constant cough finally made me realize that it is time for me to pay attention to control my mental body, watch my though patterns and learn to focus my mental energy and be still. This is very easy to say but very hard to do as this is to change my old and conditioned habit. The change will not happen overnight, however, with my patience, discipline and perseverance, I can make it happen, little by little, slowly but surely. I can eventually move away from restless, highly charged thought pattern and mental energy. One good thing is that at least I am aware of it now. Now, I can start to make conscious effort to watch my thoughts and the way I am thinking, learn to focus on what I really wish to do and to have in my life, and start to manifest it. Boy, what a realization and decision I just made. The next step is to have discipline, patience, determination and perseverance to make it happen. Slowly but surely, I will change it.

I put the Maitreya’s newsletter of “Thought Energy” here for your reference, you may be enlightened by his simple but wise words. If you wish to read more about Maitreya’s message, please go to www.Maitreya-edu.org.

To be continued….

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PATIENCE – Part 5

Friday, April 16th, 2010

I moved to a better environment so that I had more quiet time to be alone. This enabled me to go deep within. Then, only then, have I started to deal with my ingrained issues: perfectionism, values and conditioned habits and beliefs from my past lives. This process truly makes me change and be humbled.

This process has transformed from a busy person to slowing down. I now enjoy being alone and having quiet time with myself. I felt more peace and contentment with myself. I have more time to look at my mirrors and to review myself so that I can make change. I can say that last year was one of the best years since I started my spiritual path as it really slowed me down so that I have had time to work on myself and to make radical changes in my own Being.

Now, after seven years no stop changing and clearing, learning lessons and working on my karmic debts, I am still in the process and it will never end as long as I am still on the earth plane. Now, I no longer rush and push myself to do things. I have been learning to listen to my feelings and inner guidance so that I can allow spirit guide me, lead me and to bring things to me. Because I am dealing with letting go of my Ego’s control, I found that I have more energy to focus on things which are important for spiritual work. I also realize that I am much calmer and not be bothered by things that used bother me greatly.

As I said before, I used not having patience at all. If I wanted something, I wanted it now, very demanding and controlling, even though I was totally not aware of it. For example,  if I ordered something, I wanted it to be in my hand in a few days, if it did not arrive in my expected time frame, I would call the company again and again to push them or find out what was going on. By doing these, it really caused a lot of stress on me, but I was not aware of it. It has become my habit. I was controlled by it and running by it.

To be continued….

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PERFECTIONISM – Part 1

Tuesday, March 30th, 2010

I did not realize that I had some deep issues connected to perfectionism until recently as I began to clear some very deep past life patterns I have carried over many incarnations. In this incarnation, I always wanted to do thing perfectly, if I could not, at least I wanted to try my best. I never thought this was an issue. In contrast, I was very proud of me for doing so as I considered it as an attitude of being responsible.  I did not want let anyone down, furthermore, I did not want anyone to find fraud in my work. If there was something wrong, I would blame myself for a long time. My mind would run over and over again to review the mistake that how I could not realize it and how I could make such mistake. I would try all I could to fix it, if I could not fix it, I would try to cover it up so that no one would know and I would not take any blame. Many times, actually no one blamed me but I would blame myself for a long time, I simply could not forgive me for making any mistake. I actually was my own worst enemy.

Because of this tendency, it has become an ingrained habit. I always wanted to be the best. I always wanted to be praised by my bosses, colleagues, co-workers and friends. If I did not get the attention I needed, I would be very upset, which could ruin my good emotions for a long time. Ironically, I could not talk to anyone about it either as I did not want anyone to see my weakness and imperfection! As a result, I was always one of the best students, workers, employees, etc. wherever I was, whatever I did as if I worked my life for it and I have lived my life for it. Of course, I also paid my price for keeping this high standard – I hardly had close friends, and I worked very hard to keep up the high standard. My life was very heavy. I was very serious. Life simply was not for me to live and enjoy but for me to perform!

To be continued…..

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I AM THE CREATOR OF MY OWN REALITY – Part 3

Tuesday, January 12th, 2010

This was so true. As I released more and more past life energies, I gradually realize that I was the one who caused a lot of unnecessary emotional dramas in the past. Most of the past life issues were created by my uncontrollable emotions, such as fear, insecurity, low self-esteem, etc.

Because of this awareness, I was able to see my issues and problems. I began to take responsibility for these emotions. I realize that any issues or problems I have had in my life is always somehow I need to take responsibility. For example, in a situation where I was controlled or abused, I realize that it happens is because of my fear, because of my fear, I gave my power to someone whom I thought was more powerful and bigger than me, so I allowed it happened.  The person who had power over me was because I allowed. Therefore, if I want to clear this past life pattern, I need to take my power back, not through controlling and demanding, but through no fear to speak my truth quietly and clearly and no fear to let go something I no longer need in my soul evolution.

SincAdd Newe then, I started to change the pattern and habit. Instead of continually blaming others for my problems in the past, I started to see what I need to take responsibility in my part. By doing so really helped me to shift my energy. Because of my change, it reflects to others’ change. As a result, the relationship began to change. Finally I worked through these issues and renewed my relationships with others one by one.

These experiences allowed me to see how I could create my own reality. Instead of hoping others to change and to be kind to me, I had to change myself and to be kind to others first. I must truly let go of the past and start working on bringing the compassion and understanding to my life. Once I did it from my heart, the past life energy began to shift and the new energy started to come in.

To be continued…..

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MY SPIRITUAL DEVELOPMENT – Part 6

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

I had learned this in a hard way.  A few years ago, I met a man whom I had several past lives together. In the past I loved this man so much that I allowed him abusing me due to my fear of losing him. This life when I met him, we both ran into past life mode, he treated me as nobody and he even was not aware of his doing as it was just his past life habit. I needed to stand up to him to speak my truth quietly and clearly, but because of my fear, I could not do so. I was hoping that he could be nicer to me and to love me, but this was only my wishes and it did not happen what I wished. My whole emotions were stirred up with anger inside me as the more time I spent with him (he triggered this past life energy buried within me). So one day, when I talked to him, he ignored me and was not bothered by my presence.  At the beginning, I almost beg him to talk to me but it did not work. He worked on  his computer all the time and did not look up at me at all as if I was not there. I insisted him to answer my question, he finally got angry and said to me: “Don’t you see I am busy?!” My anger towards him was finally triggered by his words, when it came out of my body, it was so overwhelming that I could not help swearing to him. I said to him: F you! How dare you talking to me like this?! The anger was so profound that I lost my voice, my whole body was reacting in pain and high fever, and it took me almost two weeks to recover from releasing this past life energy. Now you can see the power of our past life energy. This anger has been trapped inside me for quite a few life times but I never released it until now. When it came out, it was very destructive like a volcano!

To be continued….

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