July 24th, 2010
First of all, I stopped judging or feeling bad about this person and the related work. Secondly, I decided not to take this matter personally but see it move objectively. Then, I asked myself: How could I help? I decided that instead of blaming or criticizing this person, understanding their situation, having sympathy and compassion to them. Therefore, I approached this person and offered my help in a very sincere way. surprised me that this person was far more pleased by my offering to help.
From this event, I have learned that I can make difference and create the positive reality by changing my habit, pattern, belief and conditioning. Anything and anyone in the outside world is only a reflection of my inner world. I can not judge, criticize and blame anyone for what I don’t like. They are only the mirrors for what I need to see and to deal with within me. I am the only one who is responsible for me, my life and my situation. The key to improve my relationships with others is to work on my self from within. Before I judge and criticize, I need to see the good, light and beauty in others. By doing this alone, it will help me be at peace with myself. If I can be at peace with myself, I will have peace with others, with the situation, with the environment.
This awareness is a revolution for me. This is going to change my old habit, belief, conditioning and pattern from my very being which I have carried for so many incarnations. Only by doing so, working on each aspect of me step by step, little by little, can I truly evolve to the soul who I truly am. I know that this will be an on-going process and will not be an easy one either. But with my good intention, patience, discipline, determination and perseverance, I can make the change. I am the only one to be responsible for my life. If I do not do it, nobody will do it for me.
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July 23rd, 2010
First thing I realize what I need to change is to stop judging and criticizing anyone and anything. Instead of thinking about people or things in a judgmental and critical manner, I need to see the light, good and beauty in everyone I encounter and everything I deal with. Everyone has a heart, a beautiful heart. If I can see this beauty and trust it, I will be able to feel it and be touched by it. This is the first thing for me to do. If I can truly do so, I can be truly kind, soft and gentle.
A few days ago, I thought about something that we should do a few weeks before. But the person who was in charge did not do it because of the very busy schedule. While I was driving, I thought about it, my first response to my thought was blaming and anger because I automatically ran into my old habit and pattern: judgmental and critical. I thought about how they should do but they did not do, how this person never listened to me and never allowed me to help, bla, bla, bla… This triggered me so much anger and hatred. It was very intense so that it shocked me as I did not know where it came from. I vented my anger and hatred, and made conscious choice that I determined not to let the anger and hatred to control over my emotions anymore. Once the anger was vented, I was able to be calm and to look at this situation from within. What should I learn or do in this situation?
While I was thinking, I realized that I used to allow my emotions to take over in the past whenever I thought about things or situations related to this person. I always put myself in a victim position and always blamed this person. But I never thought if I could consider things or situations from this person’s situation, I might have better understanding. As I realized this, I was aware that I have created the uneasy relationship or uneasy cooperative situation because of my judgmental and critical attitude, and because of my conditioning and belief. As I was aware of this pattern, I decided to change it.
To be continued…
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July 22nd, 2010
Many years down the road I have developed the habit to do things with no mistake. I always wanted to be the best, not because I wanted to be the best, but because I was afraid if I was not the best, I would be in trouble of survival, nobody would not value me or keep me. If I made mistakes or errors, I could blame myself very badly; I would think the mistake or the error over and over again: How could I let this happen? How stupid I was that I did not pay attention to! Other people would laugh at me now …bla, bla, bla… My mind ran as a wild horse and my Self would imagine all sorts of sceneries how things could be. I could not forgive it for a long time either. Then I would try to justify myself or to find excuses for the mistake or to cover it up before anyone found it. Because of fear, fear of being a failure, fear of being not good enough, fear of being less than others, I was afraid of taking responsibility for mistakes or errors I have made.
This gradually has become a habit and a pattern of me to deal with people, things and situations. As I so used to be this way, I even could not realize any problems or issues I have developed from it. Because I have been dealing with the outside and inside world this way, I habitually also think about others this way too. I would judge others based on my belief. I suspect other people’s good intention or genuine. It is so easy for me to find people’s flaws, fault, problems or shadow part, then, I based on what I found to judge them. The more I did this way, the less I could trust others. The less I could trust others, the few friends I could have. Because of the judgmental and critical, my mind was all the time busy to create conflict, difficult and disharmony between me and others. My mind did not have peace at all! When my mind was not in peace, my whole being was not in peace. I did not realize that I created this reality for myself!
I did not have close friendship because I could not trust anyone. I did not have good relationships because I could not see any good and genuine in others. For so long I have been in denial and self pity for all these happening in my life, I have been struggling and suffering from all its consequences as my soul does not like it at all. I hated myself and I was angry with myself because I saw myself as a ugly, unattractive and unlovable person. And I tried to find the solution from external but no result… Until now, as I raise my consciousness, I finally realize that I can not find any solution externally except looking within as it is all within. Because of this awareness, I am now finally able to see what I need to change!
To be continued….
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July 21st, 2010
I used to play a lot with 3 girls who were one grad higher than me but lived in the same family housing area in my father’s working place – Police Department of our city. Unfortunately, one day before the Cultural Revolution, three of them came to me to condemn me as bullying and declared that they terminated their friendship with me because I touched one girl’s breast even though she allowed me to touch it. They did not give me time to explain but just left. I was desperate and ashamed, even today when I thought about them, I can still see their stern face clearly. I really felt that I was abandoned because of my stupid and silly action. I also felt guilt and dirty.
This event has created a deep scar in my relationship with others. Since then, I was afraid of making friends with others, was afraid of expressing myself to others. The Cultural Revolution made everything much worse in me than ever. I not only was afraid of making friends, but also could not trust anyone as I saw so much betrayal and distrust: husband and wife against each other; children against their parents; brother against brother; neighbors against neighbors. I could not find anywhere to be safe and secured. I could not talk to anyone and I did not have anybody talking to either, including my parents. Basically I was a scared and lonely child, I longed for having friends but was so afraid of being rejected, not liked, betrayed and abandoned.
For those years in my childhood, I have learned that I could not trust anyone if I was going to survival. I kept everything inside me and did not share any of my true feelings, thoughts and emotions with anyone. I only showed to people what I felt safe and superficial. I hide myself in a hard shell for survival. In order for me to survive from any situation, I constantly judged people in my mind based on my belief and conditioning so that I could response properly. I worked very hard to be perfect so that nobody would find any faults or mistakes in me and I could be away from any troubles. I silently judged people’s intention and motivations, and I was always able to find their flaws. This has become my instinct response to anyone or any situation.
To be continued….
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July 20th, 2010
Before I came to the earth plane in this life, I choose to learn heavy lessons in the area of relationships, not only all type of relationships with human interaction, especially the one on one intimate relationship, but also with animals and nature as well. I have chosen to learn to be softer. Although I have been a female figure in many incarnations, but I have not learned to be gentle, to be softer without losing my power; I either allowed others to control me completely but buried so much anger within me, or I controlled others and treated others badly. Either way is not the way to bring peace, harmony, joy and happiness into my life. Therefore, in this incarnation I have determined to work out the karma I have acuminated in this area and bring balance back into my being.
In my whole life, I hardly have very close friends. Being without friends was bothered me greatly when I was young. I wanted to fit into my age group and wanted to be liked by my schoolmates, but for somehow, no one ever was close to me. I wanted to be good friend with some classmates whose family were on the high social status but ended only had one friend whose school grades were not good, in other words, who was not “academic smart”. She was the only loyal friend I had in my primary school even though I had excellent grades. She was always with me and supported me. Unfortunately, our relationship was ruined by the event that she was infected by head fungi and she in turn infected me by using her comb on my hair, so we both had Scalp Ringworm and had to go to hospital in the capital city of our province for the special treatment. Because of that, my hair was shaved and my head was exposed to intense x-ray for 40 minutes in order to kill all fungi on my head. I had to go to school with a shaved head and was laughed badly by kids in our school wherever I was. I also developed bad headache. My health was also gone down.
When my mother found out that I got the Scalp Ringworm from her, she did not want me to be with my friend anymore. So I lost my only friend. Although I was “academic smart” and had very good school records, it did not buy me friendship with classmates. I was most of the time playing alone. I was very good at gymnastics without anyone teaching me. I was also good at sports so that I was selected to swim team in Sports School, which helped me greatly in my loneliness after school time.
To be continued….
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July 16th, 2010
Message from Maitreya, Newsletter #88: “It Does Not Matter Who You Are!” ctober 4, 2003
There is no status in spiritual realms. It does not matter who you are, or what you have done. Each soul, on passing into the spiritual realms, has to go through the same ritual. That ritual is to be welcomed back home, to rest after life’s journey, and to then “face the hall of mirrors.”
Many souls believe that, because they have done good in this incarnation or given money to good causes, it will pave an easy path for them in the spiritual realms. Yet, no soul is given preference or status. Each soul is treated the same. The murderer and the king both stand side by side, waiting to return home. Yes, it may seem very strange, but that is the way it is. All souls choose their own way of learning their life’s lessons, and all, at the end of their life, stand side by side, no different from each other, souls who have achieved their destiny and who are ready to return home.
However, the level of vibration you have achieved on the earth plane is very important to you. The higher you have raised your vibration, the easier it is to adjust to the world of the spiritual realms and return home. For those who have lived the illusion their entire lives, they find it very hard to let go of that illusion. Because of the close proximity of the spiritual realms and the return “home” from the earth plane, many souls find it hard to believe that they have actually died. For many souls the illusion still exists, and it takes some while before the illusion wears off and the truth is finally revealed.
When you pass over, the spiritual world is so like the earth plane! It is the true world of illusion on a higher level. Whatever you believed on the earth plane about life when you die becomes a reality. If you believe there is a man sitting at a gate waiting to judge you, it is so. If you believe in the devil and have such fear of this, it becomes what you see on your passing over. If you believe there is no life after death, then the shock for you is even greater. These souls cannot believe they ARE dead and, for them, the passing over is even harder. There are a team of many, many souls, who work in this area, who are there to help those that pass over to our side. They are loving souls who only have compassion and love, and who very gently assist these people to let go of the belief which has permeated their soul memory, their spiritual consciousness. Only when one has faced the hall of mirrors can one finally move into the higher realms and dimensions where there is only awareness and where all illusion is gone. It is truly a wonderful place. Maitreya
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July 15th, 2010
So many of us do not know that we have held so much deep grief and emotions towards our loved ones that we not only hold ourselves back, but also we hold our loves ones back. We do not realize that it is these deep buried emotions that have brought us back together again and again in order for us to break our karmic ties and clear the emotional energies between us.
Letting go and forgiveness are the most important keys to enable us to evolve as a soul spiritually. Whatever has happened in the past, it is already done and it is the past. We can not do anything about it. Hold on to it can not solve any problem but only holds everyone whoever involves from moving forward. All we can do is to learn from our past experiences and to do it better when we have another chance. We are our own worse enemy. We judge, criticize and punish ourselves. We do all these to ourselves, not anyone else, not spirit, not God.
Forgive, let go, have compassion and unconditional love to ourselves as well as to others. This is the only way we can truly move away from anything that stops us from moving forward, and from reincarnation. I always say to my students that if we truly don’t want to meet someone in our future incarnation again, the way to get out from it is not to hate them but truly love them. If we hold any negative emotions onto anyone, even though we don’t want to meet them or to be with them anymore consciously, but for sure that we are going to meet them again in our future incarnations because the emotional ties will bring us back together again so that we can work out these emotions and issues between us. Unconditional love and true compassion are the keys to set us free from the wheel of reincarnation. Therefore, hate no one and hold onto nothing, we will achieve the true freedom of our soul. We make the choices and we create our own reality. It is totally up to us. We are alone responsible for our life. What life do we truly want to have? Think about it thoroughly, then put it into our action, and watch it to be manifested.
The following is one of the Maitreya’s newsletter for you to read. Please enjoy it. You can read more his messages from www.Maitreya-edu.org.
to be continued…
Tags: choice, compassion, forgiveness, grief, heart, incarnation, issues, life reviews, Maitreya, Margaret, message, negative emotions, newsletter, reality, reincarnation, soul, unconditional love
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July 14th, 2010
Fortunately, I have Margaret/Maitreya and Spirit’s help and guidance. In January of this year the solar eclipse on January 15th conjuncts my natal Chiron enabled me to clear all the emotional energy with him. Because of what I have done, my father was finally free from me and was able to move forwards on his spiritual journey. He no longer needs to incarnate to my family to work out the karma with me anymore. We no longer need to be tied together anymore. It is truly a wonderful feeling that we both are free from each other. Now, whenever I think about him, I only feel love, appreciation and peace in my heart, no more any negative feelings towards him any more.
I have a friend, who is absolutely a beautiful and wonderful soul. Her twin sister died 29 years ago from cancer. She was so sad and lonely. She felt lost.
She never recovered from her sister’s death. Her life moved on but she never dealt with the emotions. She buried all these in her broken heart. When she first came to my workshop, during the meditation, she was overwhelmed by the most beautiful love energy as she never felt it before. She did not know what to do about it so she stood up and wanted to leave the room. I went to her to calm her down by sending her some healing energy.
While we were talking after meditation, everyone in our class felt that her sister was with her and was sending her the most beautiful love energy. She was so thrilled by this experience. Then, as she continued taking my classes, her feelings and emotions towards her sister became stronger and stronger. Finally, she broke down and cried and cried for a whole week. She could not stop crying no matter wherever she was. She felt so embarrassed that she finally emailed me that she needed help.
As I talked to her during the session, I knew that it was the time for her to release all the emotions and to let her sister go. We did emotions code to release many different emotions, and after that, we did meditation. I guided her to go through the process of cutting off the tie and healing on all levels. After this session, she stopped crying and she felt great relief. Now, because she has released her sister from her, her sister is able to move on, and she also becomes much happier and lighter.
to be continued….
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July 13th, 2010
The last two weeks of our class, he came to visit his classmates during our meditation. He gave every one of us his message. The last day of our class, he asked sister to channel his message to us. His message is: Open our heart to love, never stop love. Love is the most important lesson that we are on the earth plane to learn and to experience. Never be afraid of expressing love and kindness to others. His words truly touched all of his classmates. Yes, it does not matter who we are and what we are on the earth plane, it matters is that we are here to give love and to receive love openly and freely.
Another issue is that our loved ones or souls can not move on in Spirit World because of our deep emotional ties with them. We hold onto them emotionally, deep sadness, deep attachment, anger, hatred or other emotions. They connect with us through energy. If we have strong feelings or emotions with them, they can feel everything that we feel, even more intensely. In other words, we hold them back and we stop them from moving forward to the next level of their spiritual development.
The emotional ties which I had with my father are one of the examples. I had so much deep anger and hatred towards my father, not only from this life but also from many past lives. In this life I have chosen him to be my father so that I could release all the hatred and anger I carried over from many past lives with him. He was very strict to me and to everyone in our family. Because of the way he was, I hated him which made me consciously connected to my deep buried past life energies with him.
Although I talked him out of the grey area in Spiritual World, I still had so much strong emotions which tied me with him and these were all on the subconscious and unconscious level. Consciously I forgave him many times and loved him very much, but every for a while, something or some situation would trigger me and these emotions towards him would come to the surface. It took me 6 years diligent and hard work to clear all the emotional ties with him. He was learning in Spiritual world and was preparing to come back to my family to continually work out the past life energies between us if I could not release them all. I held him from moving on.
to be continued….
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July 12th, 2010
I remembered that it was February of 2006, we were in Los Angels for body, mind and spirit show. Margaret rushed to find me while I was in ladies’ room and said to me that the master Maitreya asked her to tell me that my father could not forgive himself and put himself in dark area to punish himself. She asked me to talk to my father as only me at that time could have a chance to talk him out of the dark area. She suggested me to do a meditation in that evening and to ask spirit to bring my father to me and to talk to him in that meditation.
That evening, I did prayer and asked Divine Spirit to bring my father to me so that I could talk to him. During the meditation, I could not see my father. All I saw was darkness and void. But I did not stop. I felt that somehow my father was in somewhere in that darkness and listen to me. I talked to the darkness by thought from my heart. I talked to him that I forgave him and I loved him very much. I told him that I wanted him to come out of the darkness, to go back to the spiritual world to learn as much as he can. I told him that he was welcome to come back to my family and to work with me to do the spiritual work together and to serve Spirit and humanity together.
This was a very heart touching moment. I said every word from my heart and I cried from my heart. After that talk, I felt wonderfully peaceful so I knew that my father was OK. Four month later when my daughter came to join me from Philadelphia during her college summer vacation, we had a chance to talk to master Maitreya. I asked master how my father was doing now. Maitreya told us that my father finally made peace with himself. He was studying in the hall of learning in Spirit World to learn tolerance and to prepare his next incarnation. Maitreya also told us that my father could be one of my grandchildren. When I heard this news, I was so happy.
One of our classmates who attended Margaret/Maitreya’s Mediumistic Beginner and Advanced course with us, who had severe kidney problems and who was afraid of death terribly before the courses. However, Margaret/Maitreya helped him release this abject fear, he died before our class was finished. Because of his higher vibration and awareness about spiritual world, his transition to spiritual world was so fast and smoothly. It did not take him much time to adjust himself to be in the spiritual realm.
to be continued….
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